So much so that I sit here before an empty blog post for the first time in FOREVER! and I'm totally unsure of what to say "so to speak" as I know the words are in there somewhere just waiting to be channeled out (which is why I felt an undeniable urging to come post lol)
Yeah see that ^ totally a recognition that is a product of my taking time to "train" my intuition so to speak. In my time away I dove deep into that rabbit hole I've been dying to drop down. I could describe it as a journey into my heart or self realization, bonding with my true self, the universe, and totally getting my wizardry on lol All of those expressions pretty much make the point.
It's been all about experiencing whats happening in the now. "The now" such a common new age term that I feel apprehensive in using it for fear of being "cliché" on the matter but that's really the only way I could think of it. The now, the present. Because I realized that everything I wanted to and needed to know wasn't going to be gained by thinking about "What am I doing" or "What am I suppose to be doing" on a constant basis. My soul knows what I need, and because that can shift on every level and/or within any level of myself with every passing millisecond, my soul keeps up with all of it, past present future, and what it needs from my conscious mind is FOCUS, focus on what my thoughts and feelings are NOW that need to be addressed.
In the last few months I've come to recognize the signs of my psychic abilities Like singing a certain song randomly and then turning on the radio and there it is or picking up on thoughts from those around me, speaking on said "random" thought and hearing "I was JUST thinking about that, I'm glad you said something!" And also I've taken to reading numbers (apparently it's a deep passion of mine :) ) I take the numbers I see anywhere everywhere and I look up their symbolism and other peoples meanings on them and after a while I could see the patterns that were giving me certain messages through repeated number sequences based on my researched knowledge and my intuitive feelings about how the number apply to my current situations. Messages from the realm of spirit that tell me things like "A new door of opportunity has opened up for you to step up to your next level of potential" or "The angels are assisting you in an important time in creation of your life". The last one I took recently from a stream of 111's 22's and 44's that have been appearing.
Omg SO MUCH EMOTIONAL WORK! The mastery of mind and emotion is no joke! Seriously, solitary work of self when you switch the gear from auto pilot to manual is not an endeavor to take lightly. I've watched my world and entire expression of self be turned upside down and trying to make sense out of seemingly no sense in the midst of my own emotional darkness and trying to sort through it. Intentions and actions becoming all mixed up due to feelings of all kinds of fears that I didn't even know were still plaguing me like abandonment, being perceived wrong, being violated just bledding into everything I said and did and the ways I acted...and wow...just so much.
So much pain yet so much strength and understanding gained. I have experienced my own strength of core self shine light from within me as I've gone on healing and understanding more of myself and my relation to all things. Truly it has been amazing beyond my own belief. And now for my nerd moment...
I'M AT THE PART IN MY STORY WHERE I GET TO SEE HOW MY POWERS WORK AND IT'S SO COOL (~OoO)~-*
Haha, love being a magical girl >w< <3
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